And Still I Rise

For the first time in almost 6 years you are going to be alone on Valentine's Day. I know you are not really a Valentine person but some things tug at you more than others. How does that make you feel? I can't hear you, can you speak up a little louder please?

You thought you would be sad but you aren't. You see heart, you knew exactly when it all went wrong. You knew when the lies began but you reasoned that somehow it was your fault. Of course you knew it wasn't but you thought somehow you could fix it or die trying. So while your friends cursed, pleaded and cajoled you to treat your beautiful self better you just got angry. How dare them tell you what was best for you? Thing is you knew all along they were right but the stubbornness in you refused to admit. So you shed the tears they never saw and wished that things could go back to the way they used to be.

And you got angry with yourself for becoming someone you were having a hard time recognising. Remember all the times you shut your friends out because the truth was annoying or the focus was on him? Remember all the trips you missed, the hanging out, the long convos about everything and nothing? I know you do, but it's okay because your friends still love you anyway. Now you are leaping for joy because by letting go you have found yourself again.

Suddenly,this alone thing is not too bad at all. The road ahead looks chock full of adventures that you actually want to discover. I am smiling again, the real smile that makes my entire face come alive, the one that comes directly from you. You know, the one that makes the whole world smile with me.

And guess what heart? I am so incredibly proud of you for continuing to fiercely beat through it all. Heart, we are going to be okay!